Have you ever spent time with your friends just hanging around the corner chitchatting and exchanging corny jokes? Laughing out loud even if nothing worth laughable is mentioned? Surely, everyone must have done this but doing this continuously almost everyday makes me freaking sick and tired of all non-sense. I'm not saying though that I am always with my friends but the same situation goes.
I must have woken up on the wrong side of the bed for realizing this but it makes me feel dumb, low and useless. Sometimes, overdoing a joke or acting childish almost every time is really irritating. I can almost say to myself that my common sense is degrading for being able to stand up for all those non-sense moment. I know I am being vague here but something just came up recently and I wish I can get away from that person the soonest possible time. Or if not, at least I'll be able to spend less time with that person. He is starting to get into my nerves and I dunno how long I can extend my patience and how long I can handle the situation. I'm scared that if this continues I might just burst out and it might end up worse than what I expect.
They say that talking to the party involve would most like save you from the dilemma but I guess this will not work for this. Talking to an insensitive, narrow-minded and perfectionist person will not do any good especially if the person is not open to suggestions or constructive criticism after all. I just pity that person because if he won't exert efforts to improve himself and to be a better person, he will surely end up as loser as he is right now. Forgive me for saying this but writing what I feel helps me keep up with the burden...
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
On doing nothing
It's been a while since I came back to my hometown. The excitement was really indescribable knowing that I'd be coming back home. I don't have to wake up early to meet schedules and to be on time for work. I have all the time I wanted and I needed. In fairness, I have done all the things I have been longing to do with my friends for a while. I have spent time with them and have had enough of time to waste just sleeping on the couch after eating. This has been a routine for almost a month since I came back home. Frankly, sleeping after eating has become quite a habit which I think should be stopped before it gets worse. What would you expect to feel doing it everyday after quite some time? Surely, you'll get bored with it. That is how I feel right now. I am totally bored and I dunno know what to do.
I know I should take things seriously by now. I am old enough to know my responsibilities and to be matured enough to take consequences of my own actions. I hated the idea of doing nothing yet the tendency of not being able to do something for the boredom is more distracting. I should land a job. Maybe by having one, I will get to know more people and get to have pressure at least. But how will I go about it? Honestly, I wanted to land a job but i dunno how to start and where to start.
If only horoscopes do come true, then I'll just be hopeful that by next week something good and productive will happen to me. I do believe in the saying "no guts, no glory" but I dunno where to get the courage to have guts. Baga ug face as I am, there are times when my confidence is really just too low that I wouldn't know how to pull myself together and be able to do what I intend to do...
Sunday, January 9, 2011
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