It's been a while since I came back to my hometown. The excitement was really indescribable knowing that I'd be coming back home. I don't have to wake up early to meet schedules and to be on time for work. I have all the time I wanted and I needed. In fairness, I have done all the things I have been longing to do with my friends for a while. I have spent time with them and have had enough of time to waste just sleeping on the couch after eating. This has been a routine for almost a month since I came back home. Frankly, sleeping after eating has become quite a habit which I think should be stopped before it gets worse. What would you expect to feel doing it everyday after quite some time? Surely, you'll get bored with it. That is how I feel right now. I am totally bored and I dunno know what to do.
I know I should take things seriously by now. I am old enough to know my responsibilities and to be matured enough to take consequences of my own actions. I hated the idea of doing nothing yet the tendency of not being able to do something for the boredom is more distracting. I should land a job. Maybe by having one, I will get to know more people and get to have pressure at least. But how will I go about it? Honestly, I wanted to land a job but i dunno how to start and where to start.
If only horoscopes do come true, then I'll just be hopeful that by next week something good and productive will happen to me. I do believe in the saying "no guts, no glory" but I dunno where to get the courage to have guts. Baga ug face as I am, there are times when my confidence is really just too low that I wouldn't know how to pull myself together and be able to do what I intend to do...
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